HEALING

Love Letter to 2015 | Invocation for 2016

This still point: A bridge between worlds.

A history of experience, a present pause, a wide-open mystery called future.

All held together by golden threads woven with the same reverence.

This body: a space for growing, integrating, reflecting, releasing, and celebrating.

Dear 2015,

Thank you for showing me that integrity is what I value most, and that, when it feels distant, I am capable of bringing kindness and firmness in equal measure.

Thank you for proving that vulnerability evokes an aliveness in my cells that confirms what I know to be true, and that I can always learn to lean into that experience more.

Thank you for teaching me that, sometimes, love is what happens when you let certain people go to make room for others whose hearts expand yours tenfold.

There is always more love to witness and share. We need never fear: there is always more love.

You've shown me how to receive my own gentleness, again and again and again. Through humbling heartache and frustrating fatigue, you have reminded me of my own medicine's power and necessity.

You taught me how to stand boldly in my teaching and voice, regardless of consequence.

You taught me that the virtues of grace are small compared to the importance of fierce stakes in the ground built on choice and overriding presence. From there, grace is only magnified.

Thank you for swiftly nudging me onto new platforms and into new partnerships and for asking me to be brave and visible in ways I never thought possible.

Thank you for the new lovefest of friends and for the growing tribe that continues to inspire, support, and encourage me to be true, open and ever courageous. May we lift each other up with consistent compassion and conscious attention.

Thank you for guiding me to the beautiful Raven for yoga with my teachers and my sister, for showing me that these seemingly opposing worlds can merge effortlessly to bring loving contrast and varying personality. It has added color and richness to the world in ways that I could never create on my own. You have surprised me at each turn, and, for that, I have endless joyful memories to giggle about.

Thank you for revealing who deserves to know my story and who doesn't just yet and forshining a light on the mirage of a shiny object called "those who know better."

Thank you for showing me that I can move in various circles and remain true to myself and my intentions.

Thank you for giving me a summer of growth, met with disorienting challenge and sprinkled with family connections that made for great fun.

Thank you for taking me to the majestic prairies of British Columbia in autumn and introducing me to a sacred herd of horses and guides. The experience reminded me that taking the leap when inspiration calls is a trustworthy refinement in listening.

Thank you for Tareena, the unicorn mare and the queen of feminine grace. She mirrored back to me my own strength and bold desires, her presence holding me, her eyes pleading with me to step in and stand stronger in myself, to break free of my own fears and resistance, and to trust my foundation of support.

Thank you for the clients, the soul mates, and the lovers of truth that entrust me with their stories, their well-being, their hopes and their visions. Endless praise for these gallant beings that gather near. They are home to me, forever and always.

Thank you precious self, my soul, for knowing when to call on my guides and to ask for help from people so dear, for staying aligned and honest even when fear arises, and for denouncing silly labels like “backtracking” and “scared to fail.”

But most of all, thank you for letting my calm and grounded sense of self be of service.

And to 2016,

May this be the year that I see the expanded success of what roots I have laid.

May this be the year that I write with full heart and devotion, the year that I trust the burgeoning voice that can sit silent no longer.

May this be the year that I let the wild out with abandon and unleash the feminine spirit who demands her wise ways be seen and celebrated in all their grounded glory.

May this be the year that I embrace the ease and strength in my calling to create space, hold space, and encourage greater inner depths to emerge in my circle.

May this be the year that my partner, my Love, my sexy soulmate finds me, stands beside me, and evolves with me. May I recognize him and his heart as kindred spirits.

May this be the year I continue to open to the beauty that I hold within me and the ways that it wants to be shared.

May this be the year that the significance of my story, wisdom, and teachings widen their reach and grow together with those that are meant to receive them.

All my love,

C